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I see that the earlier posts aren't very recent but I'm sure that others still reference these forums so I thought that I'd add my 2 cents...
First, mikefive stated that u don't get a high from methadone & that it's okay to use for maintenance & even compares it to insulin for a diabetic! NOT TRUE! Maybe I can explain better by telling my story. I assure u that my story is 100% true – w/o ANY buffers or prompting from anyone. I hope that it will help someone out there so they don't have to experience what I have! My addiction began b/c I was in an extremely abusive relationship, then we got married & I got pregnant. He was the one who got me started on Percocets. He also had issues with cocaine/crack & any other drug that he could get his hands on. I was so embarrassed & felt like such a low life but, guess what... I was a nurse in an ER with a well off family, happy childhood & the world in front of me! I never thought that an addiction could/would happen to me, but, it did! I was addicted to Percocet/Vicodin for about 2.5 years. The addiction started as a half a 512 (Percocet) a day, for a mood enhancer, but ended up around 20-10mg tabs a day just to live after I finally found the strength to leave him. I was SO irritable, hateful, selfish & uncaring but I had no idea how bad I really was.
I finally began seeing the light and went to see my M.D. I told him about my addiction & he referred me to a dr who works specifically w/ opiate addicts. He’s actually the head of the methadone clinics on the East Coast. I thought that this meant I was getting the best dr & that he was really going to help but u can’t just put all of your trust in a physician just b/c of the degrees on his wall & the success of his practice. The makers of Suboxone pay their prescribing physicians VERY WELL… make NO mistake about that!
My 1st visit was 4.5 years ago & he immediately put me on methadone. I did get a high from methadone, really more so than with the percs & the nausea was really bad when coming down from them. It was so long ago that I can’t remember what dose I was on. Another issue that I had with my dr was that he let me control my treatment… ME, an ADDICT!! I would move my dose up & have him call in meds in between visits. He never said no or that I needed to chill out. He just kept on handing them out like candy. At the time I was relieved b/c I wanted to continue going through life w/o feeling it after being hurt so badly but it really just made matters worse.
I was on methadone for 1.5 years when I asked him about the “synthetic methadone” that he’d mentioned when I first began treatment. He told me about Suboxone & made it sound like a miracle drug… that’s when the hell began.U have to go 24 – 48 hours w/o any opiates before u can start Suboxone. The way that it was described to me was that it works like a movie theater. To start off with, the seats at the movie theater were full of people (the seats being the receptors in your brain & the people being the opiate). As u go longer w/o the opiate more “people” get up & leave their “seats” which is when u start feeling withdrawals & begin taking Suboxone. The Suboxone fills the empty seats. The more time that goes by, the more opiates have left their seats & Suboxone fills those empty seats until all the opiates are gone & the theater is filled with Suboxone. During this process, u’ll go to see your M.D. every 1-2 days to keep an eye on your dosage. At the end of the process your M.D. will adjust your dose for maintenance. At that time, your head will begin to clear.
I did experience some pretty bad withdrawals. In my case, I’d taken the first dose around noon at the dr’s office & then needed to take another around dinner time. I had a dinner for work so I went to the bathroom & tried to take it quickly. In doing that, I just sucked the pill until it was gone – I didn’t understand that it had to dissolve underneath my tongue in order to work. I had to call my dr & he called me in some Phenergan b/c I was throwing up so much & valium b/c I had HORRIBLE anxiety & couldn’t stop kicking my legs. I was lethargic & sick feeling for a few days. I did have to take the rest of the week off from work. I will say, I do believe that I wouldn’t have had such a hard time if I would’ve taken the 2nd dose properly. After the first full 24 hrs I was EXTREMELY emotional b/c the drugs were clearing out & I was feeling “normal” which I hadn’t felt in several years. I was feeling such remorse for how horribly I’d treated the people in my life. It was so difficult but at the same time exhilarating b/c I was taking my life back!
Fast forward 2.5 years to today… I have varied my dose of Suboxone from 24mg a day down to 12 mg. I could never get any lower than that until recently. WITHOUT the assistance of my dr, I’m now down to 4 mg a day! WOO-HOO!! U’ll feel some withdrawal symptoms each time u lower your dose then u will level out on that dose. Weaning off of Suboxone is not easy & cannot be done alone or quickly. Since I am close to coming off completely I’ve just started researching Suboxone & I’m just now seeing that Suboxone wasn’t the best choice. In my reading, I found a particular woman who had lowered herself down to splitting a 2 mg tablet over 7 days! She stopped taking the Suboxone & experienced withdrawals for almost 3 weeks now! At that low of a dose! And she’s definitely not the only one!
I'm absolutely terrified about coming off of these! In addition to telling my story here, I’m hoping that some people who have experienced rapid detox will respond & tell me about how it was. I’ve just stumbled upon it last night but am seriously thinking about doing it. Anything that any of you can offer me would be really appreciated!
So, the point of all this is to tell u to NOT take Suboxone! It does work, it really does, but it is very expensive & just as addictive as the opiate that u started off with! Yes, your head is clear so u are back to your old self but u’ll still have some side effects such as decreased libido, constipation, etc, etc that u had with the opiates. If I had it to do all over again I’d go to an inpatient rehab clinic for 30 – 60 days w/o taking methadone or Suboxone. I didn’t do that at the time b/c I was a single parent w/ a very young child but it would’ve been so much better for the both of us in the long run. Please, please, consider that option above others. Keep 1 simple point in mind… methadone and Suboxone have much longer half life’s than all other opiates so withdrawing from methadone and Suboxone will be much longer than with any other opiate!!! Why take yourself from a few days of hard withdrawal to a few WEEKS of hard withdrawal?!?!?!?! Do your research, join support groups & tell your family & friends! Above all, u need the support of those that u love in order to be successful! Good luck with your journey… it CAN be done & we WILL get through this!
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