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3 days - I am hurting. I know how I got here, but how it got like this is beyond me. things are unravelling at the seams.
You can call me A. I started taking lortab a couple years ago, got a nice steady cheap source and it just went from there. Now I take a min of 240mg oxy daily, along with valium and coke. My friends have noticed the change, however I only feel normal and better when I have my meds. I blame it on the coke or valium, but those arent everyday habits. Just my brain trying to justify a quick wu transaction and a pile of meds on my doorstep in 24 hours.
I hurt, I am confused, I dont know what to do wth myself. I am so ansy, yet lethargic. The depression that is settling in hurts so bad. I just need a place to vent with people in the same boat. reading stories of their trials and tribulations help so much.
Thanks for reading. I am going to read the forum.

I dont know if this will work or not. I have ibuprofin and tylenol for the pain. Flexeril muscle relaxers, piles of valuim to calm the nerves. The valium isn't touching the depression but the legal pain meds and muscle relaxers help. my mind is going miles a minute. I wish I could afford the time and money for treatment. Work has me so tied down. I don't want to be addicted to methadone as a treatment form.
I think with support from people here and a friend in my life I can make it on my own. I can keep away from them easily enough, but the wife has severe shoulder surgery in April and I am already wonder how good of stuff she will get... I dont know.

I see that I am not alone. Seems like alot of us lead successful lives, hide this well from our bosses and spouses. I feel each and everyone of your pain. It seemed so simple at first. a few on the weekends, then it migrated to a handful on the weekend. then it was occasionally on weekdays. Now it is everyday. Adderall or coke to wake up and work, started chewing pills about 1/2 before leaving work. Valium to come off the nods and sleep. repeat cycle. Left the coke alone some days. I have no urge for that stuff, thank god. Yeah, 10mg lortab feel like baby aspirin. I was told just how bad that the acetominophen was for the liver, of course there is the CWE method, but I always felt like I was wasting a few mg. I started looking into percocet and then to 30mg instant percs, then on to 80mg oxy which is much better chewed. Found a friend who could get me liquid oxy...
I feel the need to just talk and talk, but I gotta do something else or I will fill up 10pages of garble.

Sober since Feb 18th!! I feel great! I can thank strong will and determination, as well as meditation toward my recovery.

To all of you who are working at sobriety, you can do it!! it feels so good to be clean.

I'm so happy for you, glad you are meditating and finding peace in your life. If you need anything, you have our number... We are here for you!
Bre.

Hey Buddy !!Don't worry a bit!! Now that you have started treatment ,there may be some reasons that you are feeling a bit lethargic!
But you must remember that Self control is the best of the medicines ever a human had ,so just complete the treatment and after that you will feel so confident that no it will match no other happiness in the world!!
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